Kat O’Brien was 22 and interviewing the unnamed player for a narrative about foreign-born sluggers adapting to US tradition when he “moved suddenly to kiss me,” she wrote in a first-person column Sunday within the New York Times.
“I mentioned, no, no, I don’t need that, however he pushed me over to the mattress,’’ mentioned O’Brien, a former Newsday reporter who was working with the Fort Worth Star-Telegram in Texas on the time.
“I attempted to shove him,’’ she recalled. “I mentioned no, cease, no, cease, again and again. He pushed additional, getting on prime of me, pulling off my skirt, and having intercourse with me towards my will.
“Afterward, I keep in mind getting in my automobile, shaking, to drive dwelling, and my blue-and-white skirt from Express, and pondering why did I’ve to be carrying a skirt? Because it was Texas in summer time,’’ O’Brien mentioned.
“I keep in mind, as soon as I bought again to my residence, ingesting a bottle of pink wine in a determined try and numb my unhappiness and rage. Instead, I threw up all around the carpet.’’
The former journalist mentioned she by no means reported the 2002 assault as a result of “I knew that if I told anyone what happened that it would ruin my career.”
“I was 22 with no track record, and at that time — nearly two decades ago — most people in baseball would have rallied to protect the athlete. So I blamed myself,” she wrote.
“I must have been too nice, too trusting, too friendly and open. Even though I said no, it must have been a misunderstanding.”
Soon after she was raped, she mentioned she then bumped into an All-Star player within the Arlington, Texas, ballpark’s visiting-team clubhouse, and he “stared at me, saying my name and the name of his teammate, the man who had raped me.”
“Suddenly I realized [the rapist] must have told people, making himself out to be a stud and me some girl who was there to pick up ball players instead of do my job,” O’Brien wrote.
O’Brien mentioned she by no means spoke to her attacker after he raped her — and she wouldn’t title him now.
“I choose not to name him because it would only open me up to the possibility of having dirt thrown on my reputation; even all these years later and in the wake of the #MeToo movement, a former professional athlete wields considerable power,” she wrote within the gut-wrenching column.
“I hope I can help bring about systemic change rather than seek unlikely-to-come justice for one horrible act.”
She defined that she was lastly coming ahead now after studying in January that New York Mets General Manager Jared Porter had been fired for sexting a feminine reporter.
“I hadn’t been a sports reporter in 11 years, but as I read accounts of other women’s experiences with sexual harassment, the full force of my own assault hit me,” she wrote.
“And with it came the relief that I actually hadn’t invited it, hadn’t done anything wrong at all, something I had never once considered.”
After what occurred to her in that lodge room, the previous reporter mentioned she didn’t apply for jobs in cities that had groups who her rapist performed for. She additionally averted gigs that had been higher-profile, lest her private story one way or the other bought out.
O’Brien — a graduate of the University of Notre Dame and Wharton School of Business on the University of Pennsylvania — coated the Texas Rangers for the Star-Telegram after which the New York Yankees for Newsday.
She claimed that along with being raped, she endured “smaller daily assaults” that got here with being a feminine reporter within the sports activities area — together with a “false” rumor that she slept with a staff exec to land her job protecting the Rangers.
A coach additionally as soon as nicknamed her “Legs” and gamers advised she wore thongs, or nothing in any respect, beneath her slacks “since they couldn’t see my panty lines,” she wrote.
There additionally was the staff supervisor — “(not with the Rangers or Yankees)” — who stored a blow-up doll in his workplace that gamers would act out sexually specific scenes with, O’Brien mentioned.
Then there was the porn aired on a clubhouse TV and a player who requested her favourite intercourse positions, she claimed.
“I hope that by sharing my experiences, more women will feel comfortable speaking up when something is inappropriate,” O’Brien wrote.
“What I feared losing before — my job in sports journalism — is long gone,” she mentioned. “But I have found my voice.”