Kelly Osbourne opened up about her struggles with habit on the most recent episode of Red Table Talk. The British TV persona, additionally the daughter of Ozzy and Sharon Osbourne, described a current relapse after 4 years of sobriety on at the moment’s episode. After Jada Pinkett Smith started by asking Osbourne to stroll the group by what occurred, the star described the primary moments of her relapse.
“I was alone, sitting by a pool and waiting for somebody to come have a meeting with me, and I saw this woman and her husband had a glass of champagne, and it looked really nice, and I was like, ‘Oh, I can do that too,’” Osbourne stated. “And then the next day, I had two glasses. And then the day after that, it was bottles.”
Osbourne famous that she had made it all through the pandemic with out relapsing, however stated she “couldn’t hold it back” as soon as she began consuming once more.
“For the first two days, I could handle just having one drink but it was because I sat there and I was like, ‘You’re only having one drink, and you’re gonna prove to everyone that you’re normal now and you can do this,’” Osbourne continued. “And all of a sudden, everything was falling apart.”
“Gammy” Adrienne Banfield questioned the Red Table visitor about when she got here to understand the relapse was in full swing, and Osbourne stated she was at her boyfriend’s (Erik Bragg) home. One look was all it took — Osbourne “felt” the way in which he noticed her and stated she by no means needed him “to look at [her] like that again.”
“Like it was embarrassing, because for the first time ever I actually care how he feels, and I care how my behavior impacts him,” she stated. “I only want to be the best version of myself with my family and my boyfriend and my friends, and I was not. I was the furthest thing away from that. And it happened like that — [snaps].”
Osbourne has struggled with different addictions previously, noting her battle with Vicodin after tonsil surgical procedure at simply 13. The star moved from Vicodin to Percocet, and finally onto heroin earlier than her mom caught her and put her in rehab. Still, Osbourne says her “drug of choice is alcohol.”
“I want to be numb to everything,” Osbourne stated of her alcohol habit. “And at first, I was like, ‘Oh, I’m fixed because I don’t actually want to be numb right now. I just want to celebrate ‘cause I’m doing amazing. I can drink like a normal person. I have an amazing boyfriend. I made it through the pandemic. I think I’m fixed.’”
Jada additionally requested Osbourne about her objectives in life, asking her if there have been any elements of the habit that “might’ve robbed [her] of life experiences in any way.”
“Yes, I feel very behind. As a woman, I would’ve loved to be married and have children by now,” Osbourne stated. “I would’ve been no kind of mother at all ‘cause I was like that crazy addict that was like, ‘Oh, yeah, I’ll just stop doing drugs when I get pregnant, ’cause I’ll have to.’”
Although Osbourne needs she was married with youngsters, she nonetheless has household with which to bond over restoration. Ozzy Osbourne has struggled with alcoholism previously, and Jack Osbourne, Kelly’s brother, can be in restoration. But when Osbourne introduced her relapse on Instagram again in April, she hadn’t even advised her household but.
“I just did it, and then I got all the phone calls, because I knew that if I didn’t, I could’ve flown under the radar for a long time like that, and no one would’ve known,” Osbourne defined, “and I just would’ve spent the last four years building a life that I just destroyed in one drink.”
As Osbourne said in her Instagram video, she’s “back on track” on her street to restoration.
“It’s never, ever gonna get easy,” Osbourne stated “I have to hold myself accountable for every single thing I do, and I think that’s why it was so important to me that I just came right out and said it.”