Prince Harry reveals he had panic attacks, demons after Diana’s death

Prince Harry revealed on Thursday that he suffered panic assaults and descended into binge-drinking and medicines whereas battling the helplessness of being unable to avoid wasting his mom, Princess Diana.

The Duke of Sussex, 36, opened up in his new Apple TV+ present in regards to the trauma he suffered following Diana’s death in a automobile crash in Paris in August 1997.

“I was willing to drink, I was willing to take drugs, I was willing to try and do the things that made me feel less like I was feeling,” Harry confessed.

“But I slowly grew to become conscious that, OK, I wasn’t ingesting Monday to Friday, however I’d most likely drink per week’s price in at some point on a Friday or a Saturday evening.

“And I would find myself drinking, not because I was enjoying it but because I was trying to mask something.”

Harry was just weeks away from his 13th birthday when Diana died, and he tells Oprah Winfrey of their new Apple TV+ present “The Me You Can’t See” how he turned to drink and medicines.

The Former Duke of Sussex revealed May 20,2021 that after his mother's death, he turned to binge drinking and started suffering from panic attacks.
Prince Harry discusses his mom Diana’s death — and the aftermath — with Oprah on their Apple TV+ present “The Me You Can’t See.”

He instructed Oprah how his spouse Meghan Markle helped him search assist greater than 4 years in the past following a battle the place he reverted to a “12 year old.”

The collection reveals him having such remedy as EMDR therapy, an interactive psychotherapy method used to alleviate trauma and PTSD.

He mentioned that in his childhood, teen years and twenties, “I wasn’t in an environment where it was encouraged to talk about it either, that was sort of, like, squashed.”

Princess Diana holding a baby Prince Harry in 1987.
Princess Diana holding a child Prince Harry in 1987.

When he launched into royal duties he was full of dread.

“Every time I put a suit and tie on and having to do the role and sort of like go, let’s go. Before I even left the house I was pouring with sweat, my heart rate was . . . I was in fight or flight mode. Panic attacks, severe anxiety — so 28 to probably 32 was a nightmare time in my life, freaking out,” he revealed.

“People who are hurt, understandably hurt, from their upbringing, their environment, what’s happened to them, what they’ve been exposed to, what they’ve seen — whatever it is — if you don’t transform, if you don’t process it, then it ends up coming out and in all sorts of different ways and you can’t control.”

Harry mentioned he was instructed to smile and bear it when it got here to his psychological well being.

“Family members have said just play the game and your life will be easier, but I have a hell of a lot of my mum in me. I feel as though I am outside of the system, but I’m still stuck there. The only way to free yourself and break out to tell the truth,” he says, later including, “If your parents don’t want to talk about it, and your friends can’t remind you about it, there’s no reason why you shouldn’t say, ‘Hang on a second, I may be the product of my upbringing.’

“I am one of the first people to recognize that firstly, I had a fear of — when I first went to therapy — a fear of losing,” he continues. “Four years of therapy for an individual that never thought that they would ever need or do therapy is … that’s a long time. I wasn’t in an environment where it was encouraged to talk about it either. That was sort of, like, squashed.”

Prince Harry credits his wife, Meghan Markle, for beginning the road to recovery after a fight.
Prince Harry credit his spouse, Meghan Markle, for starting his street to restoration.

Harry additionally explains that he thought he “needed” remedy due to “the past, to heal from the past,” primarily the death of his mom.

“I don’t want to think about her, because if I think about her then it’s going to bring up the fact that I can’t bring her back, and it’s just going to make me sad. What’s the point in thinking about something sad, what’s the point of thinking about someone that you’ve lost and you’re never going to get back again? And I just decided not to talk about it. No one was talking about it,” Harry recollects.

He added that he would have his “head in the sand and just crack on.”

“If people said, ‘how are you?’ I’d be like ‘fine.’ Never happy. Never sad, just fine. Fine was the easy answer. But I was all over the place mentally,” he revealed.

He confessed that he began “freaking out every time he got in a car and saw a camera.”

“I would just start sweating I would feel as though my body temperature was two or three degrees warmer than everybody else in the room,” he mentioned.

“I would convince myself that my face was bright red and therefore everybody could see how i was feeling but no one would know why it was embarrassing you get in your head about it.”

He mentioned he felt like one bead of sweat made him really feel like his entire world was “pouring down,” including he couldn’t inform anybody as a result of he was so “embarrassed.”

“Everywhere I go every single time I meet someone it’s almost like I’m being drained of this energy picking up on other people’s emotions, finally I would bump into somebody who was sweating more than me and I would stop be able to speak to them and everything would calm down and then I could move on again,” Harry mentioned.

Harry additionally talked about his mom’s funeral, when he and his older brother Prince William, then 15, joined their father Prince Charles, grandfather Prince Philip and uncle Charles, Earl Spencer in walking solemnly behind Diana’s casket

“For me, the thing I remember the most was the sound of the horse’s hooves going along the Mall, the red brick road. By this point, both of us were in shock. It was like I was outside of my body,” Harry recollects. 

“I’m just walking along and doing what was expected of me, showing the one-tenth of the emotion that everybody else was showing,” he provides.

Prince Harry and Oprah Winfrey’s mental-health docuseries additionally options tales from Oprah, Lady Gaga and Glenn Close. 

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